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The things that happen…

‘Everything happens for our own good’, so they say. And I believe it. So much so that I think I saw God’s hand in everyday occurences. I map my life out, trying to see what His plan for me is. I quote Jeremiah 29:11 as the verse of my life. Yet…

I find it so hard to believe that the pain and the hurt I feel right now is a part of His plans for me. How can this be a realisation of the promise to give me ‘hope and a future’? My mind is numb and my heart is cold. I cannot feel. A haze seems to cover everything and there is not enough light to illuminate the air around me. I think I can feel the cold breath of a soul-sucking dementor when my eyes close…I dare not.

I try to see a light at the end of the tunnel. Only darkness. I strain to catch even a glimmer…no speck of hope shines its way to me. However, I try to hold on, telling myself that the darkest hour is just before sunrise. The confirmation arrives from where I least expect it. Someone who knows nothing of what I’m going through told me just now that ‘the things that happen happens for our own good’. I truly believe that this comes from Him, the solace in my time of need.

I’m amazed by His Faithfulness. I’m delighted by His Love. Now I know that I can fully trust my life in His hands. Doubtful creature that I am, there will be times like this when I question His judgment. Though it may be dificult, I will try to hold on to the promise that He made me…

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)

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